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Ragged!
He could see no human beings any more, only monsters with masks on.
By Punyakante Wijenaike
His
room was his sole refuge from the world. It held his whole life within
its four small walls. His books on the bookshelf, his little study table,
his clothes, radio and worn-out cricket bat. Outside the locked door his
father was calling to him urgently. The wood of the door was thin. He could
hear his sister weeping, his mother sobbing. Beyond his home on the hill
was the bigger world, the Technical College he had entered with high hopes.
He had always been a quiet, soft- spoken boy but within him there had been
strength to pass exams and do well in life. That was why his father was
shouting to him to come out, to face the world again.
Couldn't his father sense he was no more within the shell that was his
injured body? He lay in a curled up fetal position because of the searing
pain still in his loins. He stared up at the ceiling. He had done no harm
to anyone in life. Where then had been the Gods when they broke his body?
He lay there yet felt he was not there. Just the pain that was tingling
in his loins.
'For my sake son, please go back to College. I have spoken to the Principal.
He won't let it happen again.'
He felt sick next. Those monsters would only get worse if the Principal
had been approached. And he couldn't fight all of them by himself after
his body was broken. He couldn't face them.
What had he done to deserve this?
'Sandeep!' shouted his father in anger now. 'Open this door and come
and face the world!'
He was not opening doors to anyone after this, not even for his father.
'Forgive me nangi,' he whispered to himself ' I cannot help you with the
O'level exam. Please study on your own.'
The picture he held at bay with all his feeble strength came flooding
back into his mind again. His body felt it was on fire as he remembered.
Burning with shame and humiliation along with the physical pain he had
undergone.
The first day in College. They surrounded him, his batchmates. He had
smiled his shy smile. Were they going to welcome him into College? Make
life easy for a fresher?
He had hoped for a modest and quiet entry into the college. He knew
there would be ragging but he hoped it would be mild. He was prepared to
be ragged. But what happened to him went beyond his expectation. It turned
into an entry to hell.
The circle of boys round him had pressed in. Soon he felt faint with
the heat of their breath on his face. He stood it because he owed a debt
to his parents for pushing him this far in life. Hands seized hold of him,
stripped him of his dignity. They pulled off his brand new white long trousers
that had lent such dignity to him.
'To become a gentleman in this college let's see if you have the equipment,'
they had chanted. Next he felt a searing pain through his loins and passed
out.
But they brought him back to his senses, oh yes. He must be conscious
to undergo ragging. He was not going to cheat out on his torture by fainting.
He had been made to walk round and round in a circle, covering the naked
pain with his hands. Hoot and jeers rang round him and he passed out again.
He had woken up again in a hospital under the curious eyes of nurses
and doctors who treated his testicles. And then he was sent home a muted,
broken figure. Back home it was worse. He had to face his parents' eyes
of horror and his Nangi's tears at what they had done to her beloved Loku
Aiya.
He had fallen at his mother's feet and hidden his face from shame in
the folds of her sari like he used to as a frightened child.
'Amma will you forgive me if I do something wrong?' he had pleaded.
'What is there to forgive in you? It is those devils who did this to you
who should be punished.'
Still he kept looking up at her.
'If I do anything I should not do, will you forgive me?'
'Are you going back to fight those devils?' roared his father.
He kept his tear-worn eyes steadfast on his mother's face.
'Will I have your forgiveness?' he repeated lifelessly.
'A mother can forgive anything a son does,' she had said crying herself.
Then he had gone into his room and she had followed him with a full glass
of milk. 'Drink this my son. It will make you feel better. You have not
eaten anything for many days.'
It was after she had left that he locked the door.
And now he would not open it again for anyone. They would have to break
the lock to find him, if they wanted him again.........
Pain kept shooting up his loins.
He got up trembling and reached for the glass of milk left on the table.
Yes, he had got his mother's forgiveness for leaving this world. He could
see no human beings any more, only monsters with masks on. His father wanting
to save his pride was trying to compel him to go back to that.
He couldn't face anyone, he couldn't face life any more. Holding the
glass of milk with one hand he popped the Kanero seeds he had gathered
quietly into his mouth with the other. Then he took a swallow of the milk
to make sure they went down.
Clothes Line
You are who you are
Do you know what it is like to be a teenager and fat. It's a fate I wouldn't
wish on my worst enemy (maybe I would, if I really really hated her).
The guys are the worst. They comment on every part of your anatomy and
you can't say anything for they speak the truth. After all you are generously
proportioned. It's very rare to get compliments. Never 'you're beautiful'
always 'you will be if you were thinner'.
You come to hate crowds. You try to be as inconspicuous as possible,
but it's not the easiest thing to do.
You can't brush past a guy without hearing a comment like "Thank God
I am not injured," or "I don't want to be trampled". They call you names
and recommend diets. Their favourite is a wide eyed look with, "What do
you eat?" It hurts a lot. But the only course you have left is to ignore
them. You even hate strangers whom you never see but who forever leave
a mark on you with their thoughtless comments.
If you have friends who are guys you wonder if they are ashamed to be
seen with you. After all anyone would prefer a beautiful thin girl, to
a fat one - even if she is pretty. You are self-conscious to eat in public
and mostly you try to avoid that situation because it's a golden opportunity
for funny comments or so they think.
But friends are great. I mean real friends, who look through the outer
coverings and see you for who you are.
And it's a wonderful thing to be accepted for who you are no matter
what you look like. Well I do have that. I know who my real friends are
after all.
(Me)
Here comes Ubu Rex
By Ruhanie Perera
In a mood for a mind adventure? There's an opportunity coming your way
from April 5 to April 10. It's a chance to see quite normal tools being
used for extraordinary purposes and hear senseless words given meaning
to, purely through the way in which they are presented.
It's Ubu Rex, directed by Tracy Holsinger, based on the playwright's
horrible maths teacher. Written at the age of 15, Ubu Rex was Alfred Jarry's
way of getting back at his master, Herberg, who is melted down to the character
Ubu and is tormented by all sorts of misadventures. The script is written
in Italian pantomime style and has a lot of room for improvisation, including
a lot of physical comedy and the usage of masks and mime.
As an experimental theatre company 'Mind Adventures' has done some fairly
diverse productions, to which Ubu fits perfectly. Added to being of a rather
"hysterical quality", it will satisfy all those who for some time have
been hounding Tracy to direct a comedy.
She came across this script in London, while she was in college. "Actually
I was 'supposed to' study it in college, but I never really read it. Not
long ago when I was going through my old stuff I came across it and decided
to read it." And she simply adored it mainly because it was something new
and in many ways a 'start' of sorts for Tracy.
And for 'starters' she's dealing with a cast of 15 boys ranging from
the ages of 19-27. "I've not dealt with so many boys before and it takes
some getting used to. Unfortunately they have a tendency to get injured
at the drop of a hat."
Added to that she has not dealt with this type of theatre before. "I've
been in it and I've watched it, but I've never had to direct something
like this."
But a script of this nature just calls for a new approach, with its
abundant usage of the technique 'Pata Physics', where imaginary solutions
are found for problems, it's the perfect script for the vivid imagination.
"In fact at the beginning my biggest problem was that I had far too many
ideas," admits Tracy, "but I've toned them down quite a bit."
Where this particular script is concerned the biggest challenge for
Tracey was finding the ideal way to approach it. "We've practised since
February and having approached it in five to six different ways, the play
has finally evolved into something we want." With her constant changing
of situations and throwing the cast into the deep end Tracy's convinced
that she's scared the cast. "That, I feel was mainly due to the fact that
they were not used to this type of theatre. Now they are a lot more confident
and things are falling into place."
"Uba Rex" says Tracy "is a very 'audience-friendly' type of play. I
think it's suitable for just about anybody, even swear words are made up
words in typical schoolboy style." In order to accomodate the close interaction
the cast will have with the audience it will be performed on the lawn at
the British Council. The cast sometimes practise amidst all the 'joggers'
at Independence Square. "The response is interesting," says Tracy who has
noted that there are people who take time to watch their performance, or
at least jog around the area so that they can see what the cast is up to.
The most crucial factor for both the director and the cast is that their
audience is open to new ideas.
According to Tracy, Ubu Rex detonates all conceptions of good taste
in theatre and all the rules, pre-conceptions and traditions are casually
thrown out of the window - "isn't that cool!".
It sure sounds like a lot of fun and that's just the director's point.
Just imagine what it would be like to be a part of the cast...but that's
another story. |