Dear Mirror Magazine,
I am writing with regard to an article that was published about the band – Cynosure.
This is my story. For seven years of my life, I battled cancer. I had to quit school. I couldn’t do the things that I wanted to do. I would sit and watch my friends growing up around me and away from me; trying in vain to explain to them that they needn’t feel awkward about bringing up the dreaded C-word in front of me. My cancer is in remission now. After years of the most traumatic therapy, I am free.
Of course, I couldn’t be more thankful. But I’ve come to realize that there are scars which are not too easy to get rid of. I had to skip adolescence and look at the real world and the possibility of death; and learn to be cool and practical about it. I never had a teenage crush; I never had a boyfriend. I barely had a life, really, save for the one which had me in and out of depressing hospitals.
So you see, after all that, I couldn’t just be normal, even though I’m now allowed to have a normal life. Cancer turned me into a cynical, sour, bitter prisoner inside myself and I disliked-hated the person I was; and hated myself still more for not being able to figure out how to shed the sickening negativity and self-pity.
And then, by chance I read this article which spoke about Cynosure’s theme song for Run For Their Lives. I listened to it on Sound Cloud that day, and hit the repeat button several times. I really can’t explain it. At times the lyrics were...I can’t find the word. Random? Abstract? Maybe a combination of the two or a combination of several words. Maybe the lyrics echo what looks like the character of Cynosure- one that can’t be defined with a word or two. I don’t know. Either way, I drew a lot of inspiration from them and I still do, everyday.
I listen to the song everyday as I wake up in the morning. If the owner of the sound cloud account is able to monitor the number of page views for the song, and if there is at least one page view per day, that would be me so thank you for that, Cynosure. Finally, I am starting to see things in perspective and to open up to the people around me. Its such a simple song, but its been such a strong support system for me, and the difference in my life since listening to it has been dramatic. The article gave me a really clear glimpse of who these guys are and what their characters are like; and by relating the article to the song and the lyrics I know that when they sing Sunny Side Up, they are sincere about it and that too makes a difference.
I turn 21 in March and I am finally looking forward to it. I have no idea what I will do with my adult life as yet but I now know enough to be happy for the fact that God, my family and this song gave me the strength to fight and to make it to adulthood. And that among many other beautiful things I have discovered about life lately, is my sunny side up. Thank you, thank you, Cynosure. And thank you for featuring the band. It defined my healing experience- dramatic but true.
Thanks again for everything.
Lianna David
What Cynosure had to say …
Hey Lianna,
Thanks for taking the time to write. Despite the overwhelming amount of fan mail, stalkers and loads of things thrown at us - we also struggle sometimes to believe in ourselves.
We question ourselves and on occasion lack the inspiration to keep going.But, like you, we strive to see things ‘sunny side up.’ Your story is one of courage and we will look to your letter whenever we need a pick-me-up.
We promise to keep doing what we do till we are forced to wear adult diapers. Thank you again for your message.
Love and best wishes for the journey ahead!
Cynosure |
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